Monday, February 09, 2009

Feel like a slacker

I'm feeling like I'm not getting into the swing of this baby thing. I do try to get out once a day, but even then I try to time it for when Andra's sleeping (which is not predictable, am I supposed to be trying to get her on a schedule or something??) to avoid the possibility of a crying baby in public. Even though she's so good, I don't want to deal with that.

Last Thursday I went to a lactation thing at the pediatrician's. I got some questions answered about going back to work (and then ordered an electric double breast pump...oh boy) and met a couple other new moms (Andra was the big kid at 8 weeks). Friday 2 of those moms and I went to another new mom thing at the hospital, and then out to lunch. It was actually nice being out with other people in the same place in life...and with potentially loud babies. They all slept though (or at least were quiet). Less stressful somehow?

Yesterday (50 degrees here) I had planned to test out the BOB on my favorite short run with some friends, including one of the new moms who has run marathons, but hasn't run since getting pregnant (IVF, didn't want to take chances). So I was SUPER excited. Woke up feeling hung-over though. Not that I had had anything to drink, but it sure felt like it. Ended up puking more than I think I ever have, slept most of the day on the couch, felt guilty for not playing with Andra more, and felt really badly that I canceled on this new possible friend.

So after not eating pretty much at all yesterday, probably being pretty dehydrated (I lost 5 pounds between Sunday morning and think?), I feel mostly fine today and think I should go work out. I won't, we just went for a half-hour walk to test the BOB. But I feel like a slacker. I still haven't run more than 5 miles (which would be fine with me actually, for February, if it hadn't been just one time). I am lifting and actually working out at least 5-6 times a week so I know I'm NOT a slacker. But I am not exactly getting used to worrying about when I can go. I even feel bad leaving her with my husband, as he's not really sure yet how to deal with her when she cries (which makes me feel bad for both of them). It'll get easier as she gets older, right?? Of course as I am typing this, she's been a happy angel in her bouncy, talking to herself, smiling...I couldn't ask for more. Yet being home is easier than being out and NOT KNOWING what could happen.

I realize this is a ramble.

On a totally different topic, we are going into the city Wednesday for a dermatologist appointment for Andra's hemangioma, and also WebMD is doing a series on RA and they are interviewing me for it! I'll be sure to post the link when it's up.


N.D. said...

hey take it easy on yourself!! you are doing great! hope you are feeling better and that is great about the interview!

X-Country2 said...

You're doing great! Keep up where you can and take care of yourself when you need it. :o)

Mama Simmons said...

I've totally had that same fear about moana crying in public. I'm pretty much over it now though. I think the more you take her out, the less fear you'll have, so start someplace that's very public and loud. That way if she cries, no one will even notice! ;) And then I think the more they're out, the better they'll be each time you go... Good luck!

DC Running Mama said...

I find that Nathan generally sleeps when we are out in public...something about it being really loud knocks him right out. BTW, tell the woman that did IVF that I took it easy for the first 8 weeks and then slowly picked up my running...eventually running 30-60 miles per week through week 36. Exercise does not impact the they told me, "if the embryo is stuck in there, it ain't going anywhere and if it doesn't work out no amount of jiggling on [her] part will factor into it."

kristina said...

Oh, my goodness, you are SUCH a new mom! :)

Relax, lighten up on yourself. You are a new mom. It will all come, with time. You are already far, far ahead of the curve in terms of new mom-hood and exercise.

Hope you are feeling better. Focus on getting rehydrated and enjoying your precious baby.

Also, I think I had a hard time leaving my oldest with my husband for... hmm... the first six months! The second time around, I was way, way more laid back. :)

The Chapples said...

You're doing great! I think it's good for dads to be at home with the little ones on their own even though it's stressful at first. I know that my husband really enjoys that time now and they've developed their own little routine together :).

erika p said...

I second those who said go easy on yourself! Being a new mom is hard, and it sounds like you're doing great.

I had trouble leaving Austin with Tim too, at first, but the key was just to do it. It was a little rough on all of us at first - actually it was really hard for me to back off and just let Tim do his thing - but once I did they figured each other out and it was great.

Good luck with the breast pump. Just like nursing, it can be tricky at first, but it gets much easier with a little practice.

I hope you're feeling better, and that's really neat about the interview.

Angela and David Kidd said...

I found that the louder the place, the more likely Zach was to pass out. He sleeps incredibly soundly in Mexican restaurants - go figure. I also felt guilty leaving my baby alone with my husband (but had no problems with grandmothers or aunts) and now I've got a 4.5 month old baby and a husband that I feel like I need to train. I'm thinking about going away because I know Zach is strong enough to be fine and my husband needs to learn. So my advice is to start your husband early.

I always ran with Zach in the bob in his car seat. I jsut started walking with him sitting up in him and he seemed fine so I'm going to do some shorter runs with him in it and see how he handles it. He is a BIG boy so I think he can start a little earlier than some babies.

Clare said...

i have no guilt leaving her with women either!!!!! ok, glad it's not just me.

Heather said...

What helps me is leaving immediately after feeding; Angeline typically won't cry if she's fed and being helf - that's the other thing-- carrying her, not having her in a stroller.

With these two things, no crying!

Take your phone with you when you leave the house, that way if you're needed you can just come back... without being stuck in the mean time. No biggie!