Saturday, March 24, 2012

They are in

Two, 7 & 8 cells. Good quality. Now more waiting.

I just compared these two with last cycles two. Huge difference... These are pretty! Going to try to take RunningMama's advice and be deliriously optimistic.

Top pic is last time bottom is this time.

Thursday, March 22, 2012


Two fertilized. Same as last time. Feel slightly more positive. Co culture....

Wednesday, March 21, 2012


After all that... Three eggs.

But I did manage to finally cry. Albeit for only a minute and I had no privacy.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012


Can't focus on anything. Went into the city for 6:30 this morning for all the pre op paperwork and blood as ultrasound and then rushed back so I wouldn't miss my entire honors lab. Got there with about 40 minutes left (the kids are a pain in the butt but I love them and they were happy to see me instead of the sub which you gotta love) and somehow went on autopilot teaching projectile motion, then took my next class into the planetarium (yeah we have one in our school) and automatically did the lesson on the path of the sun. Advantage of doing the same thing for 11 years...I don't always have to think.

The dr today saw 5 follicles all good size but yesterday there were 6 so I hope she just missed one. Retrieval tomorrow. Transfer on Saturday. Hoping 4 fertilize and maybe we put back two and freeze two? If we get 3 maybe we put back all 3? Two more weeks.

Monday, March 19, 2012


Six follicles working. They range from 22.5mm to 11.7mm, so a big range, but the doctor today (whom I like because he pulls the sheet down between my legs after he puts the ultrasound probe in, so I feel way less exposed...why don't they all do that?) said he thinks I should trigger tonight (though slim chance not til tomorrow) and they should get 6 eggs. Not all guaranteed mature, but hey, 6 is 33% more than the 4 I got last time. And this time I was on half the meds.

Very, very antsy. Just want this done.

Thursday, March 15, 2012


Managed a double workout today...ran 4 miles at school after my bloodwork and ultrasound (looks like maybe 5 follicles...biggest 14mm, then 11, 9, 2 or 3 less than maybe I'll only get 3, it's still a bit early though) since I didn't have to teach until 10, and then went to TRX tonight just because I could.

After feeling so awful for a long time, it is a relief to realize (again and again) that the reason I was so "lazy" was because I was SICK.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Good egg vibes

My friend Jessica (who's been through this) texted today that,

"I do like that you are cycling close to Easter. Good egg vibes."

Cracked me up, and changed my tune a little. A little more positive going into monitoring in the morning...

And in case you didn't see it on Facebook, isn't this the best picture?

Monday, March 12, 2012

Spring run

Ran an easy 2.5 miles today, in the weather everyone is talking about. The two weeks or so I took off due to my GI stuff took a toll. I started taking Entocort, a steroid (another one, yeah), to see if it helped. It did. Which is good except that that means the issue is probably autoimmune...Crohn's, likely, but who knows. I'm just happy to have relief and hope it lasts. I was so wiped out...RA has nothing on this. I would come home from school feeling awful and just being exhausted. Gym? No chance. On the rare days when I felt ok, that's the only time I really believed how bad it was on the bad days. The good days, I wanted to go to the I knew it wasn't just laziness. Anyway...just one more thing.

Bloodwork and ultrasound today...about 6 little follicles, same as last time. They are small...but I've only been on Follisitim and Menopur for 2 night so far, and I guess I really have no idea what the Clomid was supposed to do. I don't go back til Thursday which is nice. I add in Ganirelix today til the end, which seems strange to me given how small they all are (there is one bigger one...maybe it's for that?), but I'm not overthinking it. Just doing what I'm told.

It hit me today on the drive back to work, most things in life, you work hard and learn and try your best and good things come a a result. This is one of the only things ever that I feel like I have no control over. That's hard.