One craving

So I don't feel so fat anymore...I think I'm back to looking normal.  Still tired but today wasn't as bad.  Ate pretty healthily today which might help.  I am finding that I actually have a craving this time...JUICE.  It's all I want.  The sweetness, plus the fact that I'm so darn thirsty ALL THE TIME.  Actually ran on Sunday.  Well, ran/walked.  But it's more cardio than I've done in a while.  I promise myself to go back to working out when school ends...7 more weeks. 

Still beating

Seven weeks today, another ultrasound but this time at my OB's office.  Everything looks good.  I have been exhausted, hungry, thirsty, a super salivater (like I'm going to spit all over my students when I'm lecturing) and I feel less fat and more like I am already looking pregnant.  It's not just  my lower belly, it's the whole round thing from the boobs down.  Whatever...I just wish I had more time (as in less tutoring), more energy, and more WORKING OUT.  This is 100% different from last time...oh well.  I can't live in the past.  It will all get better....

Fat

6 weeks 1 day. Today was the first day of hunger/nausea (not bad just noticeable). I know I started this pregnancy not in good shape (compared to marathon PR shape last time) and it's pregnancy number two and I had a couple (3?) pounds on my starting weight from last time (149 vs 146 but more fat this time) but I did t expect to look like this so soon. And feel like this. I posted a pic at 15 weeks last time and I think I look worse now. I hope it doesn't continue. I feel like I have stronger abs this time but more fat on top of them. I know I hated the fat but not pregnant looking phase last time but it's so early andover last longer this time. Argh.

Heartbeat!

1400

Levels doing what they're supposed to do. Ultrasound Monday at 5w5d.

214

So more than doubled. That's good. More bloodwork Wednesday then ultrasound Monday the 16th. Almost 6 weeks then but probably too early for heartbeat.... That'll be nerve wracking.

87.5

Positive. 87.5, they said anything over 50 is good and it doesn't seem high enough to be twins.

I'm still not allowed to relax though, huh?

I can say this now, though. I KNEW this one worked.

(Thanks for the comments, RunningMama and Nitsirk...)

16 hours

Not quite so patient any more. I can't full out admit it, but I am really hopeful. Which means if I'm wrong, it's going to be worse than last time. When I wasn't hopeful, but still hung on to a thread of a chance. Tonight I've been reading infertility blogs, all sorts. It just helps, reading how others get through and what they feel and knowing it sucks but I'm normal.

I'm driving back to the satellite clinic tomorrow, where I did most of my monitoring, rather than into Manhattan. I won't pee on a stick...I consciously didn't buy any when I went to Target today. This has been my mantra all cycle, something I found on Pinterest:



16 more hours til they call.

Patiently

Waiting. Test Wednesday. No spotting like last time. Hopeful...