Friday, April 24, 2009

Summer is close...



This is how I spent the last 2 days playing hooky from school (hey, gotta use those personal days every year or they expire!). After 3 days of cold rain, Thursday was sunny and nice enough for an hour walk/run (about half and half) outside. Today was an hour walk with Jessica and baby Kate to work off the amazing caramel apple cookie I had with lunch. This weekend I'm hoping to motivate to run 8 or so outside, alone. I've been slacking a little on the weights, feeling envious in a not so good feeling way every time I see someone on a bike, but enjoying being outside and slowly accepting running with the BOB. I love walking with it, which ends up being the problem...I'd rather walk than run. I have a hard time believing that things will get back to normal (as in, feeling like I'm in good running shape, having 7-8 miles be normal weekday runs, lifting 2-3 times a week, riding with Eric once a week, etc.) but at the same time I know it'll be easier as Andra gets older and doesn't need just me so much (at least, I hope my perception that she needs just me will change!). And if things don't go back exactly the same as before (as if they could), I hope to find peace with 5 and 10k's rather than halfs and marathons. I definitely don't have a ton of encouragement to get out on my own and run, and I think that support, or push, from home is essential to getting back to distances right now. Again, once Andra is older, I hope that support materializes...

4 comments:

N.D. said...

Clare - I think you are doing great! You went back to school and are doing an excellent job fitting everything in. I hope that I will when I go back.

RA Guy said...

I was happy to find your blog, it's good to hear your RA story. We are close in age, and a lot of issues your write about are similar to ones I deal with. Congratulations on becoming a mother!

DC Running Mama said...

Clare--I think we have to "find a new normal" and embrace that change. I will be in your shoes in a few short weeks and think the internal struggle will be hard. I also don't have a lot of support from home to get back to long distance running...but also hope that will return as Nathan gets older. You have to give yourself kudos....most moms don't work out at all after having babies. You are comparing yourself to a freakishly small subset of people!

Oh and the apple cookie sounds yummy!!

Angela and David Kidd said...

Good for you, playing hooky. And you are doing great, run when it feels good and when you can. You'll figure out the support and routine. It all takes time (and a lot of trial and error).